Feeling a Bit Better

I feel like I should post something a bit more positive and not have that last post be the star of my blog for the next month or two.

I've chippered up a bit and have gotten some stuff done. I did a minor overhaul on the closet in my sewing room to make room for the new baby. I also de-cluttered the room a bit. Now it has on the essentials in it and is more or less ready for a baby. I also did a bit of cleaning in Curtis's room. I finally put all of the baby toys away in a box and then did an overhaul on his dresser. Out with 18m clothes and in with 2T/24m. He hasn't quite outgrown all of his 18m clothes, but I'm tired of looking at them. He's been in them for quite a while. I am very excited for some of the very cute clothes that he now has in his dresser to wear. I'm also glad that he has a nice variety that will take him from summer into fall and winter.

I have also managed to get some of the downstairs picked up, apricot-pineapple jam made, cooked up a loaf of zucchini bread and rescued my onions from bind weed. Thank goodness tomorrow is the Day of Rest and I don't have to feel guilty about taking a nap and not being productive. :)

A Bit of Self Pity

This may not be the best place for this, but I need an outlet and like to type.

I just feel out of sorts and don't know why and don't like it. This isn't a new thing, it's come and gone for several months now. I feel out of touch with friends and just don't know what to do with myself. I've lost motivation to do things or just feel so overwhelmed but all that I could be doing that I do nothing. I hate sitting around staring at my house and all that needs to be done but not wanting to do anything about it. Really I'm just not a home body, but have no place to go to escape. I should probably be a better mom and play more directly with Curtis, but he does such a good job of playing by himself that I just let him be.

I need to find my spark/vest for life. I need to find joy in motherhood and being a stay at home mom. Maybe I need to quite whining and just do something about it.